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A Guide to Love, God, Prayer, Meditation, & Peace Within You—Right Now

No Agenda Here

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Several months into the Voice for Love Teacher Certification program, I was having a really hard time with my personal situation. I was feeling like I’d never get my business off the ground, wondering when the clients and customers were going to show up and where the revenue would come from as we were on the brink of exhausting our finances. In other words, I was completely immersed in my ego-generated dramas, believing my thoughts about the situation, not accessing any of my strategies for handling stress, and basically spiraling into guilt, self-pity and despair… you know, all the juicy stuff!

In search of comfort, I found myself struggling even in my meditations. I was really having a hard time extending love to my thoughts, and consequently having difficulty feeling Holy Spirit or even receiving messages and answers. In an email to my Voice for Love staff mentor, I wrote:

“… I got into some ‘throw in the towel’ moments yesterday where I really thought it was all a bunch of baloney and that Spirit isn’t really there to help ME out. I did go on the class call last night and DavidPaul reminded us not to enter into meditation with agendas. I think that is what I have been doing—having an agenda with Holy Spirit and attaching to outcomes for how the process will unfold.

After receiving some wonderful support and course correction from my staff mentor, as well as from Candace and DavidPaul’s online class that week, I thought I had moved past the idea of entering into my meditations with an agenda… until I had to practice teaching “Step 1: Extend Love to Your Thoughts” in our small group breakout session.

One of our members came to the call quite late that evening and another was absent, so our small group turned out to be just DavidPaul and me. I practiced teaching my lesson on Step 1 and DavidPaul, while complimentary, also picked up on some key phrasing I was using that suggested there was an outcome to be accomplished by extending Love, like making my thoughts quiet down or go away.

Here’s what I learned: Extending Love to my thoughts should have no other agenda than extending a loving, Holy Spirit perspective to my thoughts. I only want to relate to my thoughts the way Holy Spirit does. I’m not trying to accomplish anything other than a Holy Relationship.

It’s not about having my thoughts disappear or even liking what they are. It’s about extending or just allowing a flavor of Love (acceptance, compassion, understanding, acknowledgement, amusement, gratitude, etc.) to exist toward my thoughts.

Then DavidPaul and I practiced extending Love to our thoughts, right then, and I got to work with this newer perspective of NO AGENDA. This totally shifted my experience of Step 1. The stress of the exercise fell away and a lot of emotion surfaced. Then, without going deliberately into the other steps, all of a sudden there was this overwhelming, delicious feeling in my body and an incredible, audible message—an embrace of “I love being You.” Holy Spirit loves BEING me!

Hearing this message created a powerful, tearful release for me and a level of self-acceptance that I could finally feel within myself. Now I no longer have to convince myself that I ought to be loving myself more—now I just do. What a breakthrough!

Thank You, thank you, thank you, DavidPaul and Holy Spirit!